..............to move on.
As I've mentioned before I suffer with depression and have done for quite a while (thank you, menopause). Since the back end of 2011 I've really been struggling, I've also been fighting with a new back problem (I strat physio the week after next). I've worked over the weekend but today I took a sick day as I couldn't face another 12 hours fighting with my back at work, the bending, pushing and moving has got too much. As you can imagine it didn't go down well.
Over the weekend someone asked me if I will be in the same job until I retire. This question has made really think. Combined with the 12 hour days which I'm finding too much, the stress of being a manager, working for a new company and some other issues I'd better not air on a public blog in case it comes back to haunt me, I've decided enough, is enough............I am going to change my job. It has been coming on, probably 2 years but I didn't want to change the status quo. This might seem to some - so what, just get on with it but I've been in this job 12 years and I've seen many ups and downs, we've also built up a good reputation and kept it - which, in this industry is an achievement. The home is like a another family and I know I'll be missed and I'll miss them but for my long term mental and physical health I need to be pro active and change my life style. At present I feel very trapped and so unhappy.
Ideally I want to lessen my hours and try to get back some life/work balance, I also want to work on improving my health and to do this I need to move on. Wish me luck! One thing seems apparent, there seems to be plenty of RN jobs about.